So, I was just working on a project with one of the girls on my team. We're at my desk putting together one of every.single. Venus and Shave Prep item that we manufacture. We finish up, she goes to walk away and does a double take. She walks back and says "Are these YOUR kids?!" pointing to a 3-picture photo frame I have on my desk. I said yeeeeeees........like huh? Why did you say it like that??
She said I look WAY too young to have 3 kids.
Hallelujah!!! The skies have just opened up. LMAO.
She said she thought I was in my mid to late 20's.
I asked if she wanted to be my new best friend. HA.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Daily Thought
I get these emails every day from Real Simple and it's called the Daily Thought.
Today's daily thought:
Fear not those who argue, but those who dodge.
Amen.
Today's daily thought:
Fear not those who argue, but those who dodge.
Amen.
Mid week weekend update
Ha. I crack myself up.
It's Wednesday. This has been a rough week but it's going by pretty quickly so I'm handling it.
We had a great camping trip last weekend. Our annual jaunt up to New Hampshire to stay at Pine Acres. (The good one - not the one in Oakham, MA that we'll never go back to) I love love love Fall camping. Except that last weekend didn't really turn out to be much of fall camping. It was hot and muggy. Rained at night. But at least it rained at NIGHT and didn't spoil our days! We arrived on Friday night. Left the house at 3p and it took us over 3 hours to get up there with traffic and such. The ride was just fine though. Kids were great and I got to catch up on some of "my" magazines. They aren't really mine........a perk of the new job is magazines. They get every kind of magazine under the sun here and a lot of them come for people who are no longer on the team so I get the leftovers. I get every magazine I have ever wanted a subscription to and then some. Yahoo!
It's Wednesday. This has been a rough week but it's going by pretty quickly so I'm handling it.
We had a great camping trip last weekend. Our annual jaunt up to New Hampshire to stay at Pine Acres. (The good one - not the one in Oakham, MA that we'll never go back to) I love love love Fall camping. Except that last weekend didn't really turn out to be much of fall camping. It was hot and muggy. Rained at night. But at least it rained at NIGHT and didn't spoil our days! We arrived on Friday night. Left the house at 3p and it took us over 3 hours to get up there with traffic and such. The ride was just fine though. Kids were great and I got to catch up on some of "my" magazines. They aren't really mine........a perk of the new job is magazines. They get every kind of magazine under the sun here and a lot of them come for people who are no longer on the team so I get the leftovers. I get every magazine I have ever wanted a subscription to and then some. Yahoo!
Anyway. Saturday we took the kids apple picking and we had SO much fun. Applecrest really is a fantastic orchard. My only complaint was the weather. It was hot and muggy. Christen and I were dying. Next year I think I'll wait a week or two to go up the NH. Let it cool down just a little bit. I just hope we can still get the good apples. The kids loved riding the tractor out to the orchard and back. We grabbed some lunch, got the kids some ice cream, walked around the farmers market. It really was just a great day. Of course I had my camera with me............
The four kids
The kiddos picking their apples
Family shot. I hate pictures of myself these days but I'm working on it.
We came home on Sunday and I spent the day doing laundry, catching up on some DVR and preparing for the week ahead. I never did get my clothes switched over but I'll work on that this weekend. We don't have much planned. The Sheriff's Dept is doing their annual fall thing so we'll be hitting that on Saturday. Can't wait for that. I looooove decorating the house for Fall. Mums, pumkins, scarecrows, hay, cornstalks. The whole nine. I'm very excited! I love Fall!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
In pieces
What happens when a relationship goes bad? One you thought you were guaranteed to have for your entire life?
I've blogged about my sister before. I blogged about her trip up here in August. I believe I blogged about how horrible it was. We hadn't spoken since. Until Monday. Until I got to work, checked my email and found that I had received the most horrible email I have ever gotten from anyone in my life. I've never been spoken to that way. I've never been talked about that way. And it was from my own sister.
I'm broken. Crushed. Devastated. There is no coming back from this. At all. Not for me.
The worst part is, she sees nothing wrong with what she has said. Says she treated me respectfully, with love, just had to get things off her chest. What she said can never be taken back. Ever. I will never forget what was said. Ever. I really think our relationship is over and, if it's not, it will never EVER be the way that it was again.
How does this happen? How? How is it that she sees things one way and it is SO different from the way things really are? How does she claim to have a relationship with me when, for the past TEN years, she has come home just once a year? You can't know someone by seeing them once a year. Not REALLY know them. How can she pretend to know what my life is like when she hasn't been around it in over ten years?? The only time I heard from her is when she needs me. She's had a seizure, is having a panic attack. Is in the hospital and needs me to fly down to Florida. Which I did more times than I could count. If she is doing just fine - I have always been the one to initiate the email, the phone call, do the reaching out. Always. It's like I'm not even a thought unless she needs something from me. But, for me, she is always on my mind. I worry about her. Worry about her health, if she is having seizures, how she is doing. But - no more. She is a grown woman and needs to be responsible for herself. I will no longer be the one she runs to. I can't be. Especially not after what was said. Like I said before, things will never be the same again.
On the one hand, it's not a super big loss for me. I see her once a year. I only talked to her when she needed me. I've never been completely 100% honest with her because I was always afraid of what would happen. What kind of relationship is that?? It's not a very good one. I have always gone to her defense when anyone has ever talked about her, always made excuses for her. Friends, family, her ex girlfriends, I have always, no matter what, stuck by her side. She has NO idea. Why would I tell her? It's just something I did because she was my sister. No explanation needed.
On the other hand she is my SISTER. My blood. Someone I should have been able to count on. Talk to when I needed to. Said anything to without fear of judgement. I should have been able to be 100% honest with her on anything, when I needed to. But it wasn't like that. I have friends who are much closer to me than she is. Who I can talk to, who I can say anything to. Who think it's OKAY if we don't share the same opinion and they don't condemn me for it. Isn't that what life is all about? We are supposed to be individuals. Our life is OUR life - no one elses.
I wonder if one day she'll ever regret what she said, the damage she has caused. I wonder if one day she'll ever see it wasn't ME. I doubt it. It breaks my heart. My family is so messed up as it is. I have always envied people that have had those tight knit families that I haven't had since my grandmother passed away when I was 13. Now it's grown even smaller.
In spite of all of this.........I know I am blessed. I have an amazing husband and three fantastic kids. I know I have a good life. I know I am a good person (contrary to what C thinks of me.....apparently I am a cold, bitter and evil person) and I know that I'm doing things right. I would do anything for anyone and I think people know that about me. The only thing I can do is be happy with myself and my life. It's for ME to live and not anyone else. Especially people who are only part of my life on a part time basis. It angers me that I even feel the need to stick up for myself. It angers me that she thinks she can just cut me to shreds but then say she did so in a respectful manner. If there was any ounce of respect she would never have been able to talk to me like that. Her older sister. Whom SHE has stuck in a "Mother" role (when I did NOT ask for it) for a very long time now. She would never have sent that email. She would have had a grown up conversation, face to face with me, like I asked her to while she was here. But, instead, she ran out of my house like a child.
There is nothing I can do about it. Everything happens for a reason and I will hold on to that with both hands. Even with a broken heart.
I've blogged about my sister before. I blogged about her trip up here in August. I believe I blogged about how horrible it was. We hadn't spoken since. Until Monday. Until I got to work, checked my email and found that I had received the most horrible email I have ever gotten from anyone in my life. I've never been spoken to that way. I've never been talked about that way. And it was from my own sister.
I'm broken. Crushed. Devastated. There is no coming back from this. At all. Not for me.
The worst part is, she sees nothing wrong with what she has said. Says she treated me respectfully, with love, just had to get things off her chest. What she said can never be taken back. Ever. I will never forget what was said. Ever. I really think our relationship is over and, if it's not, it will never EVER be the way that it was again.
How does this happen? How? How is it that she sees things one way and it is SO different from the way things really are? How does she claim to have a relationship with me when, for the past TEN years, she has come home just once a year? You can't know someone by seeing them once a year. Not REALLY know them. How can she pretend to know what my life is like when she hasn't been around it in over ten years?? The only time I heard from her is when she needs me. She's had a seizure, is having a panic attack. Is in the hospital and needs me to fly down to Florida. Which I did more times than I could count. If she is doing just fine - I have always been the one to initiate the email, the phone call, do the reaching out. Always. It's like I'm not even a thought unless she needs something from me. But, for me, she is always on my mind. I worry about her. Worry about her health, if she is having seizures, how she is doing. But - no more. She is a grown woman and needs to be responsible for herself. I will no longer be the one she runs to. I can't be. Especially not after what was said. Like I said before, things will never be the same again.
On the one hand, it's not a super big loss for me. I see her once a year. I only talked to her when she needed me. I've never been completely 100% honest with her because I was always afraid of what would happen. What kind of relationship is that?? It's not a very good one. I have always gone to her defense when anyone has ever talked about her, always made excuses for her. Friends, family, her ex girlfriends, I have always, no matter what, stuck by her side. She has NO idea. Why would I tell her? It's just something I did because she was my sister. No explanation needed.
On the other hand she is my SISTER. My blood. Someone I should have been able to count on. Talk to when I needed to. Said anything to without fear of judgement. I should have been able to be 100% honest with her on anything, when I needed to. But it wasn't like that. I have friends who are much closer to me than she is. Who I can talk to, who I can say anything to. Who think it's OKAY if we don't share the same opinion and they don't condemn me for it. Isn't that what life is all about? We are supposed to be individuals. Our life is OUR life - no one elses.
I wonder if one day she'll ever regret what she said, the damage she has caused. I wonder if one day she'll ever see it wasn't ME. I doubt it. It breaks my heart. My family is so messed up as it is. I have always envied people that have had those tight knit families that I haven't had since my grandmother passed away when I was 13. Now it's grown even smaller.
In spite of all of this.........I know I am blessed. I have an amazing husband and three fantastic kids. I know I have a good life. I know I am a good person (contrary to what C thinks of me.....apparently I am a cold, bitter and evil person) and I know that I'm doing things right. I would do anything for anyone and I think people know that about me. The only thing I can do is be happy with myself and my life. It's for ME to live and not anyone else. Especially people who are only part of my life on a part time basis. It angers me that I even feel the need to stick up for myself. It angers me that she thinks she can just cut me to shreds but then say she did so in a respectful manner. If there was any ounce of respect she would never have been able to talk to me like that. Her older sister. Whom SHE has stuck in a "Mother" role (when I did NOT ask for it) for a very long time now. She would never have sent that email. She would have had a grown up conversation, face to face with me, like I asked her to while she was here. But, instead, she ran out of my house like a child.
There is nothing I can do about it. Everything happens for a reason and I will hold on to that with both hands. Even with a broken heart.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Random
So I have a bowl of Dove chocolates on my desk for visitors. I really don't touch it for the most part. However, I have a few calories to spare today so I decided to take one. On the inside of the wrapper Dove has these little diddies for people to read. Mine says:
You know what? You look good in red.
I think this is hysterical. I was JUST talking about (and posting to Pinterest last night, honest to God) about how I'm trying to incorporate more Red into my wardrobe. I really love the color and I do think it looks good on me. I just bought a pair of red ballet flats two weeks ago for a pop of color and I am absolutely loving them.
It just makes me stop and think sometimes when things like this happen. Someone says something, a horoscope is right, that kind of thing. Things that make you go hmmmmmm.
You know what? You look good in red.
I think this is hysterical. I was JUST talking about (and posting to Pinterest last night, honest to God) about how I'm trying to incorporate more Red into my wardrobe. I really love the color and I do think it looks good on me. I just bought a pair of red ballet flats two weeks ago for a pop of color and I am absolutely loving them.
It just makes me stop and think sometimes when things like this happen. Someone says something, a horoscope is right, that kind of thing. Things that make you go hmmmmmm.
Hellooooo, is anyone there?
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just writing to myself. If anyone is reading say hello! ;o)
Things are going pretty well in the Foley Family.
School is underway.
John is fully back to work and we've gotten into a pretty decent schedule.
I'm getting more and more comfortable in my new position here at P&G and I'm ready to dive even deeper. I need to be BUSY. I do find the days are going by pretty quickly. There are days where I don't even have time to get on MSII or check FB more than once in the morning. In my old role I always had time for this! I'm liking it though and I think it's a good thing.
I've started on another TBLC with the girls on the board and I am very happy to say that I am doing really well! Granted, we are only a couple of weeks in but this is a big deal for me. I'm finally putting actions behind my words and I'm proud of myself for it. I've been seeing consistent loss and I'm happy to report that I am not at the back of the pack this go around. I plan on keeping it that way!
We had a good weekend. Low key for the most part which is not the norm in our little world. Usually the weekends are busy,busy, busy. The only thing I had planned was a 31 Gifts party and I did really well there. I got over $200 worth of FREE product! I literally didn't spend a dime. Thanks to everyone that placed an order!! Saturday night I spent the night tagging for a consignment sale I am doing this weekend with Lisa. She came over with Ronny and the kids for an impromtu playdate and she helped me get situated. Then we went through 2 of her one million boxes and got that done. We were tagging and entering online until 11:30p! But at least it's done. For the most part.
Yesterday I saw a movie with Susan. "I Don't Know How She Does It" with Sarah Jessica Parker. I would be lying if I said it didn't remind me of my life some days. Very cute movie, I liked it a lot. The only downfall would be that I broke a tooth while there. On a french fry. I only had a couple of them but look what it gets me - a broken tooth. Thank goodness I already had a dentist appt scheduled for tomorrow night! The inside of my cheek is shredded from this tooth. It's that bad!
When I got home it was time to do some reorganizing. Fall has set in around here so I wanted to go through all of the kids clothes, shoes, closets, drawers and get everything switched over. HUGE sense of accomplishment here because we were able to get it all done. It warms my little Type A heart when I get all organized and set up. I'll do my stuff next Sunday after we get home from camping.
Yup. Big camping trip this weekend. I cannot wait. I'm really looking forward to the cooler weather, going apple picking, sitting by the campfire and just relaxing. I'm super excited that Christen et al are coming with. We used to spend so much time camping together before marriage, before kids. I love being able to continue the tradition with our little (or not so little lol) families! I'll try and remember to post pictures when we get home. I know I've been really bad with pictures on this blog.
Things are going pretty well in the Foley Family.
School is underway.
John is fully back to work and we've gotten into a pretty decent schedule.
I'm getting more and more comfortable in my new position here at P&G and I'm ready to dive even deeper. I need to be BUSY. I do find the days are going by pretty quickly. There are days where I don't even have time to get on MSII or check FB more than once in the morning. In my old role I always had time for this! I'm liking it though and I think it's a good thing.
I've started on another TBLC with the girls on the board and I am very happy to say that I am doing really well! Granted, we are only a couple of weeks in but this is a big deal for me. I'm finally putting actions behind my words and I'm proud of myself for it. I've been seeing consistent loss and I'm happy to report that I am not at the back of the pack this go around. I plan on keeping it that way!
We had a good weekend. Low key for the most part which is not the norm in our little world. Usually the weekends are busy,busy, busy. The only thing I had planned was a 31 Gifts party and I did really well there. I got over $200 worth of FREE product! I literally didn't spend a dime. Thanks to everyone that placed an order!! Saturday night I spent the night tagging for a consignment sale I am doing this weekend with Lisa. She came over with Ronny and the kids for an impromtu playdate and she helped me get situated. Then we went through 2 of her one million boxes and got that done. We were tagging and entering online until 11:30p! But at least it's done. For the most part.
Yesterday I saw a movie with Susan. "I Don't Know How She Does It" with Sarah Jessica Parker. I would be lying if I said it didn't remind me of my life some days. Very cute movie, I liked it a lot. The only downfall would be that I broke a tooth while there. On a french fry. I only had a couple of them but look what it gets me - a broken tooth. Thank goodness I already had a dentist appt scheduled for tomorrow night! The inside of my cheek is shredded from this tooth. It's that bad!
When I got home it was time to do some reorganizing. Fall has set in around here so I wanted to go through all of the kids clothes, shoes, closets, drawers and get everything switched over. HUGE sense of accomplishment here because we were able to get it all done. It warms my little Type A heart when I get all organized and set up. I'll do my stuff next Sunday after we get home from camping.
Yup. Big camping trip this weekend. I cannot wait. I'm really looking forward to the cooler weather, going apple picking, sitting by the campfire and just relaxing. I'm super excited that Christen et al are coming with. We used to spend so much time camping together before marriage, before kids. I love being able to continue the tradition with our little (or not so little lol) families! I'll try and remember to post pictures when we get home. I know I've been really bad with pictures on this blog.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Weekly update?
It's been a week so I've got catching up to do. Sorry, I've been busy!
Last weekend was great. Camping at Normandy Farms. I just *heart* NF. It really is a wonderful campground and they have a LOT to offer. Christen and Ronan came on Saturday and spent the night. The kids have SO much fun playing together and I love spending time with my old friend again. (no, she's not old, I'm sure she'd LOVE hearing that, I just mean we've been friends for 15 yrs!!)
We have booked THE official Fall camping trip. I refer to it this way because we're heading up to New Hampshire and we'll be going apple picking. That makes it officially fall for me lol. We're heading up to Pine Acres on the 23rd. Different from the PA we went to last month in Oakham. I scored a SWEET deal on the trip - because we stayed there last year I got the whole weekend for $72. YUP. SCORE!!! Christen, Mike and Ronan are coming up with us so that's $36 a family. For the whole weekend!! Pretty damn sweet. All the kids are free. I'm happy to say that this Pine Acres revised their prices and the sites include a whole family - not just 2 people and then you pay for the kiddos. VERY smart, we'll definitely be return campers. (again)
We're headed to APPLECREST for the apple picking. I personally think this is the best Orchard I've ever been to. They have SO much for the kids to do, aside from the apple picking. We can really make a day out of it. It's almost like a mini festival when you are there. You come onto the property and they have a farm stand, band, food, homemade ice cream, a farmers market with all kinds of veggies, fruits, homemade jams, baked goods and other things. They also have face painting, a petting zoo and a hayride. Across the street is the Orchard and they drive you right on out. It's such a wonderful time. Combining it with camping is just the icing on the cake for us.
What else. Haven't spoken to my brother or my sister since the weekend C&J came to visit. It's hurts a lot but what can I do? I'm not going to be the one to keep putting in all of the effort. It feels like they only care when THEY want something. They reach out when they need something. It breaks my heart that there is no sense of "family" in my family. I have my nuclear family and that is pretty much it. I know that is a lot, I get that, but I am HURT by the rest of my family. Those are my feelings, I'm entitled to them. I wish I had what others had. I wish I had aunts and uncles that were a part of my life. I have no mother. I have no father. I have none of the foundation that others take for granted and count on. Yes, I'm jealous. I am jealous of close families. Close siblings. I wish I could be a part of something like that. That's just me being honest.
On to happier news. JOHN GOT A JOB!!!!!! The interview I mentioned in my last blog, they hired him on the spot. Said they'd be "foolish to let you walk away with the multitude of experience you have!" YAY!!! Finally someone who APPRECIATES his qualifications and doesn't hold them against him!! I'm so proud of him and I'm so happy that we can begin the journey to get back on our feet. His schedule is Mon - Fri 7a to 3p. It makes for a LOT of preparation and planning but we're getting into a routine and we're making it work. :)
(We are still hoping for the Power Plant. He is still pursuing that. He likes what he is doing now, but he'd love to get back there. It really was a great job for him. So, we'll take what we can get for now but hopefully the Plant pulls through.)
I'm in my new role fully now - unpacked my crates and moved my things into my new desk - so that must make it official, right? I have had NO training though. I'm pretty frustrated but I'm going to give K the benefit of the doubt and hope that she's going to step up soon and help me out. Most of my Team is in Cincinnati right now for a big meeting so I'm actually working on stuff for my old team this week. I need to stay busy. I'm doing monthly reports and I've set up some training time for people that will be taking over things until they get a permanent replacement for me.
The kids are all back to school and they are all loving it. I'm so happy! Their teachers seem really nice and I love being back into a regular routine. When I come home they are so eager to tell me about their days and show me their projects. Melts my heart. I just love them to pieces.
Before I go on forever, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to myself and John! We've been married for 10 years today. We've had SO much happen over the last 10 years. Kids being born, losing both of our Moms, buying a house, selling a house, building a house, getting jobs, losing jobs, on and on. But I wouldn't change a thing about our marriage. (I'd change a few life things, for sure, but not anything about US) He is my rock and I love him more and more every single day. I've been told many times that he is the perfect husband for me and I couldn't agree more. <3
Last weekend was great. Camping at Normandy Farms. I just *heart* NF. It really is a wonderful campground and they have a LOT to offer. Christen and Ronan came on Saturday and spent the night. The kids have SO much fun playing together and I love spending time with my old friend again. (no, she's not old, I'm sure she'd LOVE hearing that, I just mean we've been friends for 15 yrs!!)
We have booked THE official Fall camping trip. I refer to it this way because we're heading up to New Hampshire and we'll be going apple picking. That makes it officially fall for me lol. We're heading up to Pine Acres on the 23rd. Different from the PA we went to last month in Oakham. I scored a SWEET deal on the trip - because we stayed there last year I got the whole weekend for $72. YUP. SCORE!!! Christen, Mike and Ronan are coming up with us so that's $36 a family. For the whole weekend!! Pretty damn sweet. All the kids are free. I'm happy to say that this Pine Acres revised their prices and the sites include a whole family - not just 2 people and then you pay for the kiddos. VERY smart, we'll definitely be return campers. (again)
We're headed to APPLECREST for the apple picking. I personally think this is the best Orchard I've ever been to. They have SO much for the kids to do, aside from the apple picking. We can really make a day out of it. It's almost like a mini festival when you are there. You come onto the property and they have a farm stand, band, food, homemade ice cream, a farmers market with all kinds of veggies, fruits, homemade jams, baked goods and other things. They also have face painting, a petting zoo and a hayride. Across the street is the Orchard and they drive you right on out. It's such a wonderful time. Combining it with camping is just the icing on the cake for us.
What else. Haven't spoken to my brother or my sister since the weekend C&J came to visit. It's hurts a lot but what can I do? I'm not going to be the one to keep putting in all of the effort. It feels like they only care when THEY want something. They reach out when they need something. It breaks my heart that there is no sense of "family" in my family. I have my nuclear family and that is pretty much it. I know that is a lot, I get that, but I am HURT by the rest of my family. Those are my feelings, I'm entitled to them. I wish I had what others had. I wish I had aunts and uncles that were a part of my life. I have no mother. I have no father. I have none of the foundation that others take for granted and count on. Yes, I'm jealous. I am jealous of close families. Close siblings. I wish I could be a part of something like that. That's just me being honest.
On to happier news. JOHN GOT A JOB!!!!!! The interview I mentioned in my last blog, they hired him on the spot. Said they'd be "foolish to let you walk away with the multitude of experience you have!" YAY!!! Finally someone who APPRECIATES his qualifications and doesn't hold them against him!! I'm so proud of him and I'm so happy that we can begin the journey to get back on our feet. His schedule is Mon - Fri 7a to 3p. It makes for a LOT of preparation and planning but we're getting into a routine and we're making it work. :)
(We are still hoping for the Power Plant. He is still pursuing that. He likes what he is doing now, but he'd love to get back there. It really was a great job for him. So, we'll take what we can get for now but hopefully the Plant pulls through.)
I'm in my new role fully now - unpacked my crates and moved my things into my new desk - so that must make it official, right? I have had NO training though. I'm pretty frustrated but I'm going to give K the benefit of the doubt and hope that she's going to step up soon and help me out. Most of my Team is in Cincinnati right now for a big meeting so I'm actually working on stuff for my old team this week. I need to stay busy. I'm doing monthly reports and I've set up some training time for people that will be taking over things until they get a permanent replacement for me.
The kids are all back to school and they are all loving it. I'm so happy! Their teachers seem really nice and I love being back into a regular routine. When I come home they are so eager to tell me about their days and show me their projects. Melts my heart. I just love them to pieces.
Before I go on forever, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to myself and John! We've been married for 10 years today. We've had SO much happen over the last 10 years. Kids being born, losing both of our Moms, buying a house, selling a house, building a house, getting jobs, losing jobs, on and on. But I wouldn't change a thing about our marriage. (I'd change a few life things, for sure, but not anything about US) He is my rock and I love him more and more every single day. I've been told many times that he is the perfect husband for me and I couldn't agree more. <3
Thursday, September 1, 2011
It's been a while
If you are currently hearing Stained playing in your head right now, my apologies. But it's a good song so it's okay, right?! If you don't know what the hell I'm talking about you can listen HERE.
Anyway, I'm a bit behind. I'll try to catch up in one swoop...........can't promise it won't read like an instruction manuel and go on for days. But I'll try to control myself.
Where to start. My sister's visit. It.Went.Horribly. To be fair, the whole trip didn't suck, but about 50% of it did. Her flight was delayed on Thurs. They didn't arrive until very very early Fri morning. Fri they went into Boston with M&B. I cooked a big roast beef dinner for everyone and we all had dinner. Great. Sat am. C&J wanted to take the kids to Dunks for breakfast. Fine, no problem. They say they'll be over at 830a. They show up after 1030a. Now, if you have kids, you know how hard it is to hold them off. They were STARVING. And very upset. I was ticked but I let it go. Friday afternoon C, J, B and myself go to the movies. (One Day, I was very disappointed) That went fine. Sat night they did their own thing but C told me they wanted to do the Dunks thing again Sun morning. Totally fine. Sun am turns out to be Hurricane Irene day and I don't want the kids going out in that so I say I'll head to DD with them and we'll bring it back. Easy. Well, we're at D's. C causes a scene with the barista. Gets an attitude. There is a line forming behind us. Other patrons are getting irritated. I'm on the phone with my brother. I am embarrassed b/c C is causing a scene. I tell my brother she is causing a scene. She hears me. She gets pissed. (she doesn't TELL me this, she tells my brother who told me later) She takes off like a bat out of hell from my house after we get back. We were supposed to have plans Sunday night. She bails. She wanted to take me to breakfast (just me, her and J) on Monday morning and I text her Sun night (after she bailed on our plans) "thank you but I'm going to pass." I'm upset. I'm hurt. I don't want to deal with her behaviour. (Clearly there is more to this story but I'm not going to get into every tiny detail) I don't talk to her or hear from her again until she shows up at my house at 1p on her way to the airport. She is there to take pictures. Am I going to come out and take some with them? Wait, what?! Hi, I haven't talked to you in over a day and I cancelled plans with you but smile for the camera. What. The. Hell. I took all of two pictures with her. I did not smile and I had tears in my eyes. I was just SO upset with the way the weekend turned out. How could she act normal? How could she expect ME to act normal? But she did. She took pics of my kids. She took "family" pics. Gave me a hug and left. I haven't talked to her since.
The moral of this story. I need to realize that my siblings don't care for me as much as I for them. If I am upset, I have a grown up conversation. I do not leave the room and flee from the house. We are GROWN. ASS. WOMEN. Time to act like it. I am going to sit it out. I am going to wait for one of them to contact me. I'm not going to be the one that is always trying to get together. I am not going to be the one who coddles. It's time for them to put some stock into our relationship and stop treating me like a doormat. I do any/everything I can for my siblings and they just don't care enough to do it for me. Sad, but true.
Moving on.
Aidan started FIRST GRADE on Tuesday (8/30). How is this possible?! I can't even believe that he is in first grade already. He's only two days into it but he is very happy and very excited. I'm so proud of my "baby" boy. Ryan and Erynn start school next Tuesday (9/6) and I can't hardly believe that either. Kindergarten and Preschool. It is going by far too quickly for my liking. I love that they are excited and looking forward to learning, I just wish sometimes that I could press the "pause" button for a few minutes.
Update on John. He did not get the Fox Hill job. Two out of three directors wanted him, assumed he'd be a shoe in. Unfortunately the third was afraid he couldn't afford John b/c he is overqualified and offered it to a not-so-qualified person while Directors A & B were on vacation. Apparently it was not meant to be. However. He was called and asked to interview for another company. A security/bodyguard company. I'm not 100% sure how I feel about this to be quite honest. On one hand, it's pretty badass that my hubby could be a bodyguard. On the other, the role would entail a lot of travel. Think England, Ireland, Spain. Not Boston, Plymouth, Worcestor. I'm not so keen on that part. He went on one interview, was shuttled into a second interview on the spot and is currently driving to his third interview with the same company as I type. We'll wait to see what the hours, pay, bene's, etc look like to see what the final decision will be. IF he is offered the position of course. We also might have another prospect.........back at the Nuclear Power Plant he used to work at. A friend of his works there now. Says that if John was cleared to go back to work he should have been rehired quite a while ago. They have put in two classes and had new hires coming out of those classes but John should have been hired back before any new hire. So we're working on that right now. John liked the power plant and that really worked for our schedule so, if I'm being honest, I'm hoping he gets his old job back. Fingers crossed regardless.
I started MY new job this week as well. Tuesday am was my first day sitting at my new desk. It's going. It's not awful but I haven't had any training. I'm super excited to be doing some new stuff, I just wish I knew WHAT I was doing and was more involved. I'm ready to get cracking.........just not sure what I should be cracking AT right now. I think this is going to end up being a really wonderful move for me and I'm very happy I did it.
Maybe I've rambled on just a scotch (not scotch as in the booze, skotch - can you hear what I'm trying to say?!) but I've gotten it all out there. I think. For now. If I forgot anything I'll be back. It's like a notebook. Just one I type in. HA.
Anyway, I'm a bit behind. I'll try to catch up in one swoop...........can't promise it won't read like an instruction manuel and go on for days. But I'll try to control myself.
Where to start. My sister's visit. It.Went.Horribly. To be fair, the whole trip didn't suck, but about 50% of it did. Her flight was delayed on Thurs. They didn't arrive until very very early Fri morning. Fri they went into Boston with M&B. I cooked a big roast beef dinner for everyone and we all had dinner. Great. Sat am. C&J wanted to take the kids to Dunks for breakfast. Fine, no problem. They say they'll be over at 830a. They show up after 1030a. Now, if you have kids, you know how hard it is to hold them off. They were STARVING. And very upset. I was ticked but I let it go. Friday afternoon C, J, B and myself go to the movies. (One Day, I was very disappointed) That went fine. Sat night they did their own thing but C told me they wanted to do the Dunks thing again Sun morning. Totally fine. Sun am turns out to be Hurricane Irene day and I don't want the kids going out in that so I say I'll head to DD with them and we'll bring it back. Easy. Well, we're at D's. C causes a scene with the barista. Gets an attitude. There is a line forming behind us. Other patrons are getting irritated. I'm on the phone with my brother. I am embarrassed b/c C is causing a scene. I tell my brother she is causing a scene. She hears me. She gets pissed. (she doesn't TELL me this, she tells my brother who told me later) She takes off like a bat out of hell from my house after we get back. We were supposed to have plans Sunday night. She bails. She wanted to take me to breakfast (just me, her and J) on Monday morning and I text her Sun night (after she bailed on our plans) "thank you but I'm going to pass." I'm upset. I'm hurt. I don't want to deal with her behaviour. (Clearly there is more to this story but I'm not going to get into every tiny detail) I don't talk to her or hear from her again until she shows up at my house at 1p on her way to the airport. She is there to take pictures. Am I going to come out and take some with them? Wait, what?! Hi, I haven't talked to you in over a day and I cancelled plans with you but smile for the camera. What. The. Hell. I took all of two pictures with her. I did not smile and I had tears in my eyes. I was just SO upset with the way the weekend turned out. How could she act normal? How could she expect ME to act normal? But she did. She took pics of my kids. She took "family" pics. Gave me a hug and left. I haven't talked to her since.
The moral of this story. I need to realize that my siblings don't care for me as much as I for them. If I am upset, I have a grown up conversation. I do not leave the room and flee from the house. We are GROWN. ASS. WOMEN. Time to act like it. I am going to sit it out. I am going to wait for one of them to contact me. I'm not going to be the one that is always trying to get together. I am not going to be the one who coddles. It's time for them to put some stock into our relationship and stop treating me like a doormat. I do any/everything I can for my siblings and they just don't care enough to do it for me. Sad, but true.
Moving on.
Aidan started FIRST GRADE on Tuesday (8/30). How is this possible?! I can't even believe that he is in first grade already. He's only two days into it but he is very happy and very excited. I'm so proud of my "baby" boy. Ryan and Erynn start school next Tuesday (9/6) and I can't hardly believe that either. Kindergarten and Preschool. It is going by far too quickly for my liking. I love that they are excited and looking forward to learning, I just wish sometimes that I could press the "pause" button for a few minutes.
Update on John. He did not get the Fox Hill job. Two out of three directors wanted him, assumed he'd be a shoe in. Unfortunately the third was afraid he couldn't afford John b/c he is overqualified and offered it to a not-so-qualified person while Directors A & B were on vacation. Apparently it was not meant to be. However. He was called and asked to interview for another company. A security/bodyguard company. I'm not 100% sure how I feel about this to be quite honest. On one hand, it's pretty badass that my hubby could be a bodyguard. On the other, the role would entail a lot of travel. Think England, Ireland, Spain. Not Boston, Plymouth, Worcestor. I'm not so keen on that part. He went on one interview, was shuttled into a second interview on the spot and is currently driving to his third interview with the same company as I type. We'll wait to see what the hours, pay, bene's, etc look like to see what the final decision will be. IF he is offered the position of course. We also might have another prospect.........back at the Nuclear Power Plant he used to work at. A friend of his works there now. Says that if John was cleared to go back to work he should have been rehired quite a while ago. They have put in two classes and had new hires coming out of those classes but John should have been hired back before any new hire. So we're working on that right now. John liked the power plant and that really worked for our schedule so, if I'm being honest, I'm hoping he gets his old job back. Fingers crossed regardless.
I started MY new job this week as well. Tuesday am was my first day sitting at my new desk. It's going. It's not awful but I haven't had any training. I'm super excited to be doing some new stuff, I just wish I knew WHAT I was doing and was more involved. I'm ready to get cracking.........just not sure what I should be cracking AT right now. I think this is going to end up being a really wonderful move for me and I'm very happy I did it.
Maybe I've rambled on just a scotch (not scotch as in the booze, skotch - can you hear what I'm trying to say?!) but I've gotten it all out there. I think. For now. If I forgot anything I'll be back. It's like a notebook. Just one I type in. HA.
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