How the hell do I come back after 3 months of not blogging? JC. I don't even know where to start. It was a busy / hellish / long 3 months. I feel like I should do a separate post for each kid. So I will because this is my blog and I can.
Okay, let's get this party started.......I had my surgery on July 25th. It was the worst pain I've ever felt in my entire life. I was so ashamed of myself, I can't even lie. I've had surgeries........(here's the TMI but this is my blog and you'll just have to flipping deal with it HA!) two separate breast surgeries to remove 5 tumors, 3 children (one where the epidural never kicked in), a needle biopsy they had to do 3 times to get what they needed and a partial hysterectomy that couldn't be done laproscopically so I have a full on 6in c-section scar. Plus one other surgery that I really won't make you hear about b/c it's even too TMI for me. I was so NOT prepared for the amount of pain I got from an effing KNEE. RUKIDDING ME?! I felt like the damn thing had been amputated. It was ridiculous. Then there was the humiliation. I couldn't even go to the bathroom without getting help because I couldn't get out of bed. It was horrible. Talk about humbling. I never want to go through anything like that again. It's still not over. Three months later and I'm just starting to go up / down stairs the regular way, I'm in Physical Therapy 2x a week and I'm still not able to do a lot of things that I absolutely took for granted. I will get random sharp, shooting pains through my kneecap, a burning sensation through my scar and my knee will lock up and then release with a huge POP sound that other people can hear. But, I keep reminding myself that I am ONLY three months out from surgery. PT and my surgeon keep telling me how amazed they are with my progress, how they see some people that still can't even bend their knee all the way like I am more than capable of doing at this point. Yesterday I wore my first pair of heels since JUNE! Now that, my friends, was a major milestone for me. I am a HUGE fan of heels. Not wearing them for the past four months has almost killed me. (yes, dramatic, I admit but again, this is my blog) I wasn't able to wear my absolute favorite pair of wedges all summer and I wanted to cry. But, drama aside, I made it through. Now we're into fall which brings dresses and knee high boots. So, like I said, yesterday I put on my first pair of heels. I had PT and an ortho check up and they were both happy and impressed to see I was pulling off the boots so progress is progress and I'll just keep swimming!
Work. Well, this has been a banner month. I found out that my entire team is being packed up and shipped to Geneva. You might say YAY! That's amazing, what a great life experience!! I would absolutely, 100% agree with you. (and hell yes, we would have moved!!) IF I were eligible to go. But, alas, I am too far down on that totem pole to be considered to relo. So, I'm stuck with no job. Displaced as they say. But, on the upside, I was told that I am "top rated" and they will not let top rated people leave. So, it looks like I will get *some* kind of job. Just not sure what that will be. I'm VERY realistic though and I'm 99% sure it's going to be a demotion b/c there just aren't any EA positions open on our campus. That's just the reality. Reality sucks b/c I've been there for 14 years and it took me all that time to get to EA. However, I won't give up and when an EA role does open, I'll go for it. As long as I land on my feet then that's all that matters, right? Starting over somewhere else after all this time would be my nightmare.
Home. Kids are awesome. Absolute lights of my life and my reason for being. Like I said, I'm going to post separately about them b/c they have so much going on. They keep me going every single day. John and I are having growing pains right now. I don't know how else to put it. We've been really lucky the last 13 years b/c we've never had any real issues. That's a blessing. No marriage is perfect, including ours, that is 100% true. Everyone has their issues, including us. But we've never had any real issues. I guess now it's our turn? I don't know. That's all I'm really going to say about that though b/c even though this is my blog I'm still not one to blast my business all over the place. Everything happens for a reason and I'm confident that no matter what everything will work out however it's supposed to.
Friends/Life. Surgery was a real eye opener for me. I had people checking in on me every.single.day that I didn't expect it from and people that I thought for sure I would hear from never checked in. Now I am NOT a drama queen at all, not in the least. I don't expect ANYONE to stop for me. EVER. That's just not how I live at all and anyone who knows me, knows this. If we make plans and you need to canx last min, shit happens honey, it's okay. And I won't hold a grudge! Now I know I did not have heart surgery, I had knee surgery. But I still had surgery. A text message, a FB note, a phone call, vm, anything would have been appropriate. I"m not looking for your undivided attention. Hell no and I would have hated it. But just a simple checking on you would have been okay. I was shocked when I didn't hear anything at all from some. But then random coworkers that I NEVER expected to hear from were texting me! WHAT?! I got flowers from people I never would have expected them from. It was like some crazy, upside down/backwards day. But, it is what it is. You learn things, you take them in and you move on. That's just all you can do. I've made some new friends and had some new connections that have amazed me. Like instant, soulmate type stuff which is crazy to me. We went to a football fundraiser a couple of months ago and I randomly made a comment to this woman that was standing next to me and now we're hanging out with her, her husband and their kids multiple times a month. We have SO much in common with them - instant click. The funniest part - their kids weren't even playing football. They just went to the fundraiser b/c friends of theirs told them they should go b/c it would be fun. How crazy is that? See, everything happens for a reason.
So, I guess that's my update in a very long rant. The gist of it anyway. There's always more but who has time for that ish? ;-)
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