The kids are GREAT. We've started potty training Ryan. It's hell. How can we forget when we just did this with Aidan a year or so ago? Ryan is just a free spirit and he does what he wants. He is into PTing but on his terms lol. Go figure. We'll just keep on keeping on! John says he is going potty during the day. He's not ready for underwear yet - he's in Pull Ups - but that's okay with me. For some reason the underwear freaks him out. It's okay though. I can go with that for now.
Erynn had her 18 mon check up a couple of weeks ago. She is 25.4 lbs and 32.5 in tall. Off the charts for my baby girl again. She has SUCH a personality and is just so sweet. She's talking up a storm these days and is all of a sudden looking like a big girl. I'm not liking that part but I do love getting to see the little person my daughter is turning into. I really hope she and I have a relationship like I had with my Mom. I miss my Mom so much, every day, but knowing that I have a daughter of my own does help a bit. I don't want her to grow up too quickly but I look forward to the relationship we will have. Of course, she is a LOT like her Mama so I'm expecting bumps and detours! LOL. Her newest trick. Oh my. She strips off her bottoms and her diaper when she sleeps. I go in to check her and 9 times out of 10 baby girl's naked bum is looking up at me LOL. (she's a tummy sleeper) We try to put her in snap pj's or zip ups but she figures it out. It's too funny. So now I check on her 2 or 3 times a night, the last time being right before I go to bed and make sure her little hiney is covered.
Aidan went to the eye specialist yesterday. He still has to wear the glasses (um, we knew that already lol) but things are looking good. The vision in his right eye (the one that turns in) is a little weaker than the left but that's to be expected for now. They did the dilating drops in his eyes to really check things out so he was miserable last night. His eyes were very sensitive and he was really upset. My heart was breaking for him b/c he was just sobbing and I know what it feels like since I get that done once a year as well. There was nothing I could do for him to ease it fully but he did want me to lie next to him and put a cold cloth over his eyes - that is all I could come up with.
Last weekend was a busy but GREAT weekend. Saturday we went to Katelyn's birthday party. It was SO good to see Shannon, Lisa, Steph, et al and the kids had a fantastic time. I got the best compliment from Sheila, a friend of Shannon's Mom. She specifically pulled me aside to tell me what wonderful, polite and sweet children I have. *sigh* I know this, but it's so nice to hear someone else say it! Even moreso when it's someone you don't see very often. She wanted me to make sure I knew how polite they were and how impressed she was that they listen when I speak to them. Clearly they are children and, therefore, not perfect! But, for the most part, my kids really do listen. We are BIG on manners in our house and it's nice to know that they do use them even when Mommy and Daddy aren't around to make sure lol. I have some really cute pictures from the party.
Sunday we went to the beach. A BIG group of us. John, Myself, Aidan, Ryan, Erynn, Steph, Butch, Noah, Addison, Lisa, Ronny, Avery and Shane. PHEW! It. was. Great. I miss my girls SO much so for all of us to go and spend the whole day together - I don't have words. It was like coming home. We all met up at Stop & Shop at 9am (um, or thereabouts - the girls were running a lil bit late) to grab snacks and sandwiches and off we went!! I will admit the ride was NOT ideal. We were towing the boat with us b/c the guys (and boys) wanted to be able to hop on and go fishing on the pond we planned to go to. Well, when we got to said pond it was ALL private beaches. There wasn't one single spot we were allowed to "park" on. Oh boy. We ended up driving around in the car for almost 2 hrs total but we finally landed on a pond in Plymouth. It was marked "private" as well but, luckily, Steph knew the guy who lived next door and he said have at it! No one would bother us and if they did we were to say we were staying / visiting with him. YAY!! Onto the beach we went. We were the only ones there for quite a while so we lay claim to a decent chunk of beach and the entire picnic table. It was such a great day. The kids loved playing with one another. The Dads and Moms loved catching up with each other. It was just what I needed. It was such a great day that we're doing it again this Sunday. I'm really excited b/c I love that our families are spending more time together!
What else? John has a job interview next Tuesday for the US Marshall Service. I will be honest and admit I have mixed feelings about this. I know, I know, it's been over 2 yrs since he worked - am I crazy?! But, hear me out. There are some very positive things about this - he would be working full time, YAY, he would be making very good money and I know it would ease about 99% of the stress we have been feeling in our lives for the past while. But, as with almost every situation, there are some downfalls. IF he is offered a position he would have to go to Georgia for 10 WEEKS for training. Oh. My. It's not the being a single Mom thing for 2.5 months that has me worried. Well, i guess it does tie in, but for me it's working out a schedule. I work from 7a - 3:30pm Mon - Friday. The boys go to daycare Mon and Wed but it doesn't start until 730a and you HAVE to pick up by 430p at the latest. I would never be able to drop them off b/c I wouldn't be home. Add to the mix that my office is moving to Boston in 4 wks and I will NEVER be home in time to pick them up either. The commute is going to be about an hour just from the office to my house. Daycare is another 20 min away. That part has me worried. John says with the money he will be making I could just stay home. Yes, that's a nice pipe dream but since this is my blog I will be *completely* honest.
1. I like having money. I like being able to go out to a movie, or a dinner, or to buy that pair of jeans without having to worry about where the money is going to come from. Call me shallow, call me greedy, I just call myself honest.
2. I have worked every day (save for a total of 19 mon over a 4 yr period for maternity leaves) since I was 14 yrs old. I like working for the most part. Yes, I have tough days but so does everyone else.
3. I'm not sure I could be a SAHM full time. I like the interaction of being in an office. I like the people I work with. I like having some "me" time, even if it is working for someone else.
4. I will admit that IF this goes through and John gets the job I *would* look into working a reduced work schedule. I'm not sure if it would be feasible in my role but if this all panned out I would definitely look into it. 3 days a week would be my ideal work schedule.
Okay, got all that out. To be honest I've told John that I won't even consider worrying about any of this until he is offered a position. Why spend time worrying about something that isn't even a definite yet? I have enough on my mind as it is! LOL
(told you this was going to be long!)
Sidebar - a woman in my office just came up to me to tell me how good I smell. How sweet! I recently bought a new perfume. Ed Hardy - the original one. Another coworker was in town for a meeting and I loved the perfume she was wearing so much that after she told me what it was I went and bought it. I have gotten a lot of compliments and the best part is it doesn't give me migraines! I am SO sensitive to smells that I have to be very careful what I wear, wash with, even shampoo with.
Alice Anne. My friend. We leave a week from tomorrow to go and visit for a long weekend and I am SO looking forward to it. I feel so close to her and I hate how far apart we live. We became very close very quickly and I value her friendship so much. I know you are going to read this so I'll tell you I am DREADING that car ride!! But John plans on leaving at 5a in the hopes that we miss a lot of the traffic. If you have any advice IM me or shoot me an email!!
She gave me a wonderful compliment the other day. She wanted to know how John and I keep things together. That she sees how strong we are together and how much we love each other. (I think that's the jist of it??) What a wonderful thing to hear!! I will admit I don't always feel this way b/c we have so much going on behind the scenes. But I think that is the best compliment. To have someone else take notice of your relationship and comment (in a good way lol) on it? Wow. John and I are not perfect but we both know at the end of the day it's us together. No matter what. That's just the way it is. What I have learned is that you can't be 100% on top of everything all the time. There has to be give it take, highs and lows, ebbs and flows. You can't give your all to your children, your work, your home, your spouse, your love life all at the same time. It's just impossible! But if I have the 80% for the 20% I think I'm doing just fine. Yes, we could focus more on date night. Or our sex life. But sometimes to do that would be to have something else suffer. Sometimes it just can't be done. But we are both happy and that is all that matters. John is the love of my life and I couldn't have found a better husband, friend, father. As my bf, Rich, says - he couldn't have hand picked a better guy for me and I wholeheartedly agree.
I think this is getting a little out of control so I'm going to stop for now. I'll be back later on to add in some of the pictures from our weekend!
Coming back in to add this. I get "Real Simple Daily Thoughts" in my email every day. Today's is a great one.
"I am thankful for the mess to clean after a party because it means I have been surrounded by friends."
1. I like having money. I like being able to go out to a movie, or a dinner, or to buy that pair of jeans without having to worry about where the money is going to come from. Call me shallow, call me greedy, I just call myself honest.
2. I have worked every day (save for a total of 19 mon over a 4 yr period for maternity leaves) since I was 14 yrs old. I like working for the most part. Yes, I have tough days but so does everyone else.
3. I'm not sure I could be a SAHM full time. I like the interaction of being in an office. I like the people I work with. I like having some "me" time, even if it is working for someone else.
4. I will admit that IF this goes through and John gets the job I *would* look into working a reduced work schedule. I'm not sure if it would be feasible in my role but if this all panned out I would definitely look into it. 3 days a week would be my ideal work schedule.
Okay, got all that out. To be honest I've told John that I won't even consider worrying about any of this until he is offered a position. Why spend time worrying about something that isn't even a definite yet? I have enough on my mind as it is! LOL
(told you this was going to be long!)
Sidebar - a woman in my office just came up to me to tell me how good I smell. How sweet! I recently bought a new perfume. Ed Hardy - the original one. Another coworker was in town for a meeting and I loved the perfume she was wearing so much that after she told me what it was I went and bought it. I have gotten a lot of compliments and the best part is it doesn't give me migraines! I am SO sensitive to smells that I have to be very careful what I wear, wash with, even shampoo with. Alice Anne. My friend. We leave a week from tomorrow to go and visit for a long weekend and I am SO looking forward to it. I feel so close to her and I hate how far apart we live. We became very close very quickly and I value her friendship so much. I know you are going to read this so I'll tell you I am DREADING that car ride!! But John plans on leaving at 5a in the hopes that we miss a lot of the traffic. If you have any advice IM me or shoot me an email!!
She gave me a wonderful compliment the other day. She wanted to know how John and I keep things together. That she sees how strong we are together and how much we love each other. (I think that's the jist of it??) What a wonderful thing to hear!! I will admit I don't always feel this way b/c we have so much going on behind the scenes. But I think that is the best compliment. To have someone else take notice of your relationship and comment (in a good way lol) on it? Wow. John and I are not perfect but we both know at the end of the day it's us together. No matter what. That's just the way it is. What I have learned is that you can't be 100% on top of everything all the time. There has to be give it take, highs and lows, ebbs and flows. You can't give your all to your children, your work, your home, your spouse, your love life all at the same time. It's just impossible! But if I have the 80% for the 20% I think I'm doing just fine. Yes, we could focus more on date night. Or our sex life. But sometimes to do that would be to have something else suffer. Sometimes it just can't be done. But we are both happy and that is all that matters. John is the love of my life and I couldn't have found a better husband, friend, father. As my bf, Rich, says - he couldn't have hand picked a better guy for me and I wholeheartedly agree.
I think this is getting a little out of control so I'm going to stop for now. I'll be back later on to add in some of the pictures from our weekend!
Coming back in to add this. I get "Real Simple Daily Thoughts" in my email every day. Today's is a great one.
"I am thankful for the mess to clean after a party because it means I have been surrounded by friends."
